DAY 359 : Lost in LayersDate: 24/04/2015
With my parents gone and having spent the entire day and night at home today - day 359 - I feel a bit misplaced. I believe I am at the tip of a new adventure but with the way things work here, you know, that relaxed pace... I don't quite feel like I am moving. That I believe is the biggest uh-oh moment, when you feel stagnant.
Guess I have to hone my skills in waiting.
One by one, dinner and Friday night get-together plans also got cancelled... there'll be a next time, who knows, maybe a better time too. Now focusing on the positive - I managed to blog quite a few posts and get this 'justlexlimbu.com' blog back on track. I sometimes ask myself why on earth I decided to start this daily blog... it's quite a challenge, especially once you start missing out and then you suddenly have a backlog of 10-15 or even 25 posts you have to clear out. Having said that, I'v done it for 358 days - of course some days I wrote a lot and some days were exclusive to a few words... probably how I felt. I've put my life out on the online world but then again, there are more things I've kept to myself.
Life is a series of adjustments you make, layers you peel off and some layers you want to remain lost in. The journey has been fascinating so far; to assess peoples observations, assumptions, expectations and to generally be around humans. As I grow, as I become confident in losing a layer or two, I wonder if what I have right now will remain... if they will still view this online personality in the same way. We tend to construct our own version of a person who we don't know and we hope that they will live up to our imagination. As I slowly find my way out of the layer, I hope the idea of the people remain. The support that has been shown may be challenged but I will be at my best form and ready to take one for the team. If my action can give hope and inspire others, then I will do what is required.
Will there ever be a right time for now I find myself lost in layers...